This has been a very emotionally charged weekend for me, and honestly - I'm not sure that I'm ready to write anymore about how things are going. The message in our church service today was a good one, and very relevant to the current situation that I'm working through.
I want to digest it a little more before I write about it and the impact that it is having on my life... but just know that this isn't easy by any stretch of the imagination. It's profoundly difficult, but I am doing my best to control my emotions and feelings.
I am planning on emailing my pastor in the morning and either setting up some time to meet with him for counseling, or possibly with someone else - if he suggests that. I can't get through this alone.