Wednesday, July 8, 2009

Old or Ailing?

The last few days, I've been having some obscure symptoms - and I can't put my finger on what they mean... or if they are even connected in the slightest way.

Before I even start to tell you about them - can I just say that I am SO incredibly tired of feeling like I'm 112... and when someone asks me how I'm doing... I want to tell them my laundry list of problems. Thank goodness - my shyness helps me filter that down into the one word... "Fine." John, however, (poor guy) does get to hear about all my issues... it's a wonder that he didn't invoke some sort of "lemon law" and send me packing years ago.

So... you want to hear what is going on? Hopefully you said yes... because otherwise - you might want to shut down the computer... nothing really graphic though - just weird.

Lets start with my never-ending nausea... and I'm talking about debilitating nausea... like literally on Saturday night - during our neighbor's fireworks extravaganza... I literally wanted to fall asleep with my head in the toilet... because I wasn't sure what I was suffering from more - nausea or exhaustion. Weird thing about this nausea though - is that it really hasn't effected my appetite in anyway... which seriously, I could use a little appetite suppressant right now!

Second, we come to plain old exhaustion... beyond your everyday normal tiredness. I mean, I've said before that I needed toothpicks to hold my eyes open... but I don't even think that would help right now. I'm delirious at times... and every night this week - I've totally crashed on the couch at like 6:00... unintentionally! What is that about?!

Thirdly, is my body temperature... it hasn't gotten back to normal since before I was sick. My normal is about the temperature of your average corpse... literally - normal for me is 96.1. So when I was running a steady 100.4 fever for several days - you can see my concern and why I couldn't really get out of bed. The odd thing though is that it is still running at least at a 98.5... so what is up with that? I also have to sleep without the covers on me for the most part - because I get so hot - I break out in the sweats. Which as a downside... means dehydration... and mosquito bites from the renegade mosquitoes that ride into the house on my dogs. (So, yes... that is why there is a tube of Benadryl cream next to my bed.)

If I didn't know better - I'd consider these to be symptoms of pregnancy... but I've been on continual therapy birth control pills since the beginning of May... so unless something totally bizarre happened while I was on antibiotics... it's not even possible.

Even at that - I am so convinced that I'm just insane... I can't even consider the real possibility of that... because honestly - I'm so scarred from all the years of negative pregnancy tests - I don't even WANT to take one. I loathe them... and would avoid them at all costs. Not to mention - I don't even think they are that accurate. UGH!

What's wrong with me!? And it's not vitamin related... because believe me - that is checked MORE than it is for any other human on the planet.... except my other Cut & Paste girls that see Dr. Weinstein... and even still - probably more than theirs too!