Thursday, March 10, 2011

Low Points

Almost another week has passed me by... but I have to say that I won't miss this one much. This has been a tough one for this 'ol Momma. I woke up on Monday morning not feeling right - I couldn't shake it, and decided that there just wasn't enough in me to make it to the office.

I dropped the boys off at the sitter's house and came back home - was back in bed by 7AM and didn't wake up until 12:30... was up for an hour and felt completely ready to go back to bed! I made an appointment to see my doctor on Tuesday, and then I suffered through the evening and over night hours.

I went in to the office Tuesday morning for 2 hours before my appointment - I'm closer to his office there than I am at home, and it got me on the good side of traffic. When I saw him - he diagnosed me with the flu - UGH! He told me to go home and get in bed... and that I wouldn't be returning to work until Monday. Swell.

Thank goodness for Ms. Amanda, and her taking care of the boys for me during the day this week - because I don't know what I'd do if I didn't have her. I've literally been asleep 90% of the time that the boys have been with her this week, and I don't think I've gotten that kind of sleep since before James was born!

I'm starting to see the better side of this mess, but while this is going on - the boys are both presumably teething. I can fairly safely say that James IS teething... I can feel some swollen spots on the top... two of them that he's let me feel. Which will give him 6 teeth on the top and 2 on the bottom. Last night was rough going putting him to bed... poor guy. He literally screamed for 45 minutes before he passed out in my arms and I was able to give him his bedtime bottle. I took him up to his bed and he never moved until time to get up this morning. He may also be going through another growth spurt - because he's been spending a LOT of  time sleeping this week too... lots of long naps, early to bed...

Thankfully - other than last night - he's been incredibly sweet, smiley, and cuddly this week. I just love my little man - more than he'll ever know.

With Tyler its harder to tell what's going on... he seems to be biting down like he might be getting ready to sprout some teeth, but there doesn't seem to be any swollen spots or signs of actual teeth. Just a tiny man biting the snot out of anything you'll put in his mouth. He's been a little fussier than normal... and is having some diaper issues. So, I feel like those are signs of something happening in his mouth - even without actual teeth. James went through something like this - where he had all the signs but it was about a month or so later that we actually had teeth to show for it.

Ty is also having some sleep issues. I'm at the end of my rope with this one too. I don't know what to do for him... but I've tried several things. I've tried putting him to bed earlier... I've tried giving him oatmeal instead of rice cereal... I've tried begging... nothing works. This kid takes a 6 ounce bottle with a tablespoon of cereal in it around 8 - I swaddle him and put him to bed. He is then up at 12AM for a full 4 ounce bottle, and 3AM for another full 4 ounce bottle... he's trying to kill me!!

It's been like this for 2 weeks now... and I don't know what else to do. With James we could typically give him his pacifier back in the middle of the night and he'd be fine, but Tyler won't take a pacifier for anything! I've told him that I might have to let the wolves raise him if he doesn't figure this sleep thing out... but of course he calls my bluff every night. If only he weren't so darn cute and cuddly the rest of the time. He is pretty easy going, but he definitely won't let you push him into doing something he doesn't want to do... he just has his own way of standing his ground which is a little more passive than James was.

That's pretty much our week in a nutshell... I'm just trying to hang on and take it one step at a time... but I'm still only running on 1/2 strength.

Have I mentioned that I am REALLY ready to get this move on the road... this living in limbo thing is making me nuts! I need a plan, a goal, and some steps to be checking off my list to feel like this is going to happen at some point instead of us just putting our lives on hold. It sort of in a way feels like our fertility treatment days - when everything in our lives was planned around the possibility of us getting pregnant each month. Only - we don't even have that much to plan around. Hmphf.


  1. I wish I could give you a long hug, let you cry it out, then make your butt go to bed and give you some hot tea. It seems almost irrelevant to say now, but one day you'll look back on this season and not remember any of what you're feeling right now, because the smiles of your baby boys will melt it all away.

  2. I don't have any words of wisdom, just love.

    U R loved, so hang in there. This too shall pass.

  3. Awe bless your heart! I feel ya...we were all THREE sick with the flu and brochitis last month...I thought I was going to DIE and nobody was there to take Connor so we both just had to be zombie parents and try to sleep when possible. We still swaddle Connor even though he gets out of it by the morning, but he sleeps longer with the swaddling. SwaddleMe brand makes and extra large swaddle blanket as your baby gets older and for some reason he just sleeps better like that. I don't know if that would help but just a thought.

  4. You poor thing. I wish I could make this all better for you!!!

  5. I have been praying for you much this week. I cannot imagine how you have gotten through it all by yourself. Taking care of two babies, especially two teething babies, is tough even when you're healthy and have help around.

    Sleep issues are so difficult to figure out, aren't they? I think teething may be to blame for ours, too. Everyone tells me that this phase passes so quickly and to just hang in there. I hope they are all right and we both have some better nights ahead! :)


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